hob_love

So lately iv'e kinda gone into hiding or maybe hibernation is a better word? I didnt have to work today or yesterday so i have basically spent the last couples days in my room or living room because to be honest, i dont feel like dealing with anyone right now. Its nothing personal against friends or anyone, but i just needed some serious alone time. Lately i feel like everyones been fighting and that I am just always put in the middle or always the one being bitched at because im the only one that will stick up for everyone else in the group. I havent had my phone on for the past two days and when i turned it on today i saw that i had a bunch of missed calls and voicemails. One of them being J saying that she was going to show up and kick my door down if i didnt tell her what was up. I figured id text everyone and just let them know i was ok i just needed a little time alone. I spent today scrapbooking and reading. When my mom got home she told me that i had a balloon tied to my car. Obviously curious i went outside to see what was up. There was a big yellow smiley face balloon tied to my car. All i could do was smile. So i walked over to it and tied to it was a bag of rock candy and a note. Rock candy wtf?? But then i read the note which said " Nono, my rock, my wall, my best friend. Smile girlie, the 6 of us girls are friends no matter what or how far apart we are <3 Love you, Baby J. I didnt really know what to do.... so i started  crying hahaha. I did definitly need a break from everything but its nice to know that i have friends that really care. That was honestly the nicest thing anyones ever done for me. I love you girls. Now on another note.... spending so long away from my friends is making me want to call M. He is alwyas there for me when i need a little space away from my friends, but the past couple nights i really have tried not to call him because thats suchhh a safety net and i need to get out of that pattern before college. so i cant call, i wont!

It would have been 3 years. 3 years in a row. Should i have done it? All i keep doing is asking that question. At the time i thought i would feel so much better if i didnt. After last night all i can think about is saying something next time he calls. Gahhhhh i dont know what to do

Now as the summer fades I let you slip away
You say im not your type but i can make you sway
It makes you burn to learn your not the only one
I'd let you be if you put down your blazing gun

well not really forever.. but lots has happened the past couple days. So on Sat. night we went to miss mass. We were all really late because we had to go to this kid j's party after in fall river and miss mass was in fall river so we wanted to all meet up and go together. So when we finally get to miss mass we have already missed them announcing that m made top 10! we were so proud of her.  So after that j gets a call from a who needs us to come back home and get him. So after the LONG ride home we pick him up and go to pq's party for a little while and then decide to go to j's except j puts into her gps new bedford instead of fall river so needless to say we were really late. It was a fun party though cc was hilarious the whole night, rp kept trying to get me to kiss him haha good times. me and rf are like biffls again... ya knoww : ) .so just when everyones nice and drunk its 3 in the morning and i have to be up for work at 6 so i legit drag everyone out. j ends up throwing up in the backseat of my mums car... thank god cc helped her out. we went to dunkins and stopped by pq's again where k refused to leave so we just left her. By the time i got everyone back to my house, in bed, and cleaned up my mom's car it was 5... so i called out of work. Then that night me and k went to rf's grad party only to find that everyone was peacing (with no where to go) so me k rp mw daveee and kb all went back to my house and chilled. It was fun rp was spittin some mad game to k and i think she was going for it. M was mean to me like all night as usual then when he leaves is all over me and such.. hmmm there's a shock. The next night me and m k and rp and j and a all went to j's house and watched the mist which sucks by the way! so we ended up watching the sentinel or something but then we had to leave j's. Me and m got into a like mini bitch fight on the way home but now we are good. I kinda layed down the law in a nice way and he didnt seem to mind ; ). Today i worked 2-8 and then went to c.h.'s house with the C guys and the girlss it was a good time. i kinda invited them over my house for tommorow night but idk how thats gonna play out cause us girls and the T guys are going to the beach tommorow. Laterr babycakes <3

I just watched the best movie EVER on on-demand. It was called "The Very Though of You" and it was prob. the best love story ever... so good. The legit plot was good too, like it really made you think. But yeah im sitting home watching movies cause i'm sick... food poisoning maybe?? that or some throat thing cause my throat and sinuses are buggin. The past couple days have been fun. Yesterday me and kas and k went to the beach. We ended up meeting up with j,a,t,s,f,ash and m but we wanted to go earlier then them because we had to leave for work. So we got there at like 9:30 and they got there at like 11. We had to leave at 12:30 so we were happy we got a few hours there. After that i worked at dunks 3-10 it was fun i got to know a.p. alot more, he seems like a nice kid. Then everyone from the beach went over to j's house minus k. We watched the movie the bio-dome which was just like a stupid comedy. After that we all went our seperate ways but f came up to me and apologized for s bringing up the new years thing at the beach, which i was happy about because i hate when things are weird like that. I went home feeling like death and ever since then i've been sick. I worked 2-8 at the cc today and i have to be back there for 10 tom. then miss mass!! talk to ya laterrr